Alright, so last night on SYTYCD. The routine from the Criss Angel Cirque show = YESSSSSSSSS PLZZZZZZZZ. It was creepy and WADE-Y and I watched it like ten times. Also, YAY WINNER. :D

Then we come to America's Best Dance Crew and America was stupid and put the lamest crew in the top, pitting the most creative and entertaining and innovative crew (Fanny Pak) against one of the most athletic crews (Super Cr3w). I don't know how So Real Cru (who is okay, yeah, but they haven't WOWED me once) is getting so much fanfare and YAY when they're just okay.

Also, when Fanny Pak did the judges thing during their Flashdance routine I absolutely lost it. Glenda dressed up like Shane Sparks and bouncing around was all kinds of classic, as was, "YA'LL RIPPED IT~" -- "10 10 10 SHABAM" -- "IT WASN'T CLEAN.............. YOU ALL ARE TRUE ARTISTS."

LOVED IT. Fanny Pak won in my book, dammit.

But the show, omg, please put in a vote or two for Super Cr3w, cause if a just okay crew wins America's BEST DANCE CREW, there will be hell to pay. Come on. Look at the routines of Supreme Soul and Super Cr3w and Fanny Pak against SoReal. Oh, look there's some isolations and the chicks writhing around and whining about how their parents don't support them when they're obviously in the audience looking happy and proud.

NO. Sure, I can't do what they do. But then again, I'm not trying out for AMERICA'S BEST DANCE CREW.

In other news... HAHAHAHAHHAHAAH, I love how one of the IMDB keywords for the movie Titus is ACCIDENTAL CANNIBALISM. And there are only like five other movies in the whole database with the same keyword -- one of which is the 80's version of Titus Andronicus. ACCIDENTAL CANNIBALISM. OH SHAKESPEARE, YOU CARD~

I need to watch that movie again. Heeehe~

HAPPY: SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE.

UNHAPPY: AMERICA'S BEST DANCE CREW. So Real Cru. Really? Really, America?

SO. EVERYONE SHOULD CALL 1-888-TEMPO-04 ---> 1-888-836-7604.


PLZ.



OMG.

I know I've said it before -- many times, in fact.

But but but...



KEVIN ZEGERS AND ZAC EFRON ARE SECRETLY RELATED. SRSLY.

(DORKS~ <3)



And how OMG YAY!!! :DDDDD was the Bollywood routine on So You Think You Can Dance tonight? SO CUTE.

djfkdsjf that movie was even more amazing the second time around. I also caught the fact that Alexandria liked the slave and the indian because she "knew" them. The others she wasn't so sure of (orderly/Darwin & "pirate" actor/Luigi). Lee Pace crying is the most hypnotizing thing ever. Oh oh oh and him in makeup. And the look he gets before the masked bandit is suddenly french. YES. I CAN'T YES ENOUGH. I think my favorite line/delivery is: "IT SAYS ALL OF THAT ON THAT LITTLE LOCKET...?" And Alexandria when she flips out over the dead body and is all, "WAKE UP OR THEY'LL CUT YOU UP."

OH MAAAAAAAAAN. Mia Michael's killed it on SYTYCD last week with the group routine. I was so happy to see Mark leading (he was so perfectly creepy for the role) and the song (THAT SONG, I CAN'T BELIEVE SHE USED THAT SONG <3). Not to mention the whole feel of it. It took Wade's zombies and Mia's own Danny-in-a-skirt routine and threw them together and added a whole crack-circus theme. I loved it.

PARTAKE IN THE CRAZY-MAZINGNESS.

...and I've started posting on IMDb forums. This... this is bad. D: So far I've dropped posts in the Clue, So You Think You Can Dance, Stephen King, Bag of Bones, Wall-E and I Love the new Millennium forums. Hehehehe. And you can bet your ass I will be all over The Long Walk board when that jank goes up.

EW.com is doing their NEW CLASSIC lists and they released the first 25 of the top 50 for the NEW CLASSIC VIDEO GAMES. Silent Hill 2 made the list at 44! :O THAT EXCITES ME. Psychonauts at 43! KOTOR at 30! BIOSHOCK AT 28! :D

I will be shocked if number one isn't something like GTA or Halo -- or if those two aren't at least in the top five.

(LOL, iReporters on Starfbucks closing a number of their stores and why a lot of them don't give a shit:

"I already have to spend $4 a gallon on gas, why would I spend $4 for 12 oz of coffee?"

"You're kidding me, right? Anyone heard of the Mr. Coffee machine? You can get one for $15, and set it to have your coffee ready for you when you roll out of bed, then it turns off an hour later so as not to burn your house down should you forget to turn it off."

I also will never forget someone's awesome quote on Time Magazine's website when all Starbucks stores closed for three hours one day for mandatory employee retraining or some shit awhile back: "I'm not sure why it's going to take them three hours to learn how to press a button.")

JFKLDKFJD AMERICA'S BEST DANCE CREW IS ON HOLY CRAP!

And wtf judges totally kicked off the wrong boy tonight on SYTYCD. D: LAME.

GO A.S.I.I.D. AND BOOGIE BOTS AND OMG THERE'S TOO MANY I LIKE ON AMERICA'S BEST DANCE CREW. I also like Fanny Pak just cause the 80'S LOVIN'. <3333 HAHHA~


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AHAHAHAHAHHAHA I HAVE THE BIGGEST GIRL CRUSH ON COMFORT FEDOKE.

THAT ROUTINE WAS SO CUTE. And kdjfaksdjfdsk her line about dancing in a bra and panties and beads. She kills me. XD

(Also, TWITCH! <3 And JOSH! LOVE.)

I watched Battle Royale last night for the first time again in like forever and I forgot how much I love that movie. dskafjdskfj Mimura. AND THE LIGHTHOUSE SCENE. HEEEE! <3 I need to read that novel again.

Alright, so yeah, I remember the entry a couple weeks ago where I was like, "Awww, David Cook and David Archuleta singing together is cute."

Right. And then I found the boy-duet finale performances again from seasons two and three for So You Think You Can Dance and I was like, "HAHAH AMERICAN IDOL IS SUCH AN EFFING JOKE."

S2 - Benji & Travis: Shane Spark's absolutely adorkable nerd routine. They are such GEEKS AND IT WORKS SO WELL. I watched this again and I was like, "IDOL WHAT?" And come on, they gave themselves a Brangelina name with TRANJI. <3

S3 - Neil & Danny: Mia Michael's Dueling Angry Prince OMG routine. Neil and Danny were so amazing at what they did, not to mention both being tall and hot. The outfits, chairs, pimp canes and GUYLINER helped as well. This is also the first place I ever heard the song, "Are You The One?" by the Presets. I cannot for the life of me get over how slick the part where Danny is clapping in Neil's face is. LOVE. It is so macho and yet totally NEIL/DANNY = OTP SUGGESTIVE AND I LOVE IT.

I LOVE THIS SHOW.


I fixed up the D*C EU costume thread on Kriff This! -- so now it reflects who I know is definitely going and what they will be wearing. I WILL ADD TO IT AS THE COSPLAY.COM THREAD AND THE KT THREAD IS POSTED IN WITH MORE COSTUMES. XD

Haha, totally thinking of the next logo of Kriff This! to just be a close-up of the Solo kids faces with the word KRIFFED pasted all over it. Much like the JACEN/ANAKIN/JAINA = CREEPY/DEAD/BITCH logo from a couple years back. XD

SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE. I CAN'T. BUT THESE PEOPLE CAN.


FOR THE WIN: Joshua Allen (!!!), TWITCH (!!!), Mark Kanemura, Will Wingfield, Comfort Fedoke, Kourtni Lind

FOR THE MAYBE: Courtney Galiano, Katee Shean, Marquis Cunningham, Gev Manoukian, Chelsea Traille

FOR THE BIG EFFING LOSE: Susie Garcia (ugh effing gross), Jessica King (testy bitch), Kherington Payne (i despise you and your mediocre dancing and your name, GO AWAY -- your hair too, it's fugly)

WHO THE SHIT IS THIS?: Rayven Armijo, Chelsie Hightower, Jamie Bayard, Matt Dorame, Chris Jarosz, Thayne Jasperson


RE: Susie Garcia - WHAT THE FUCK? HER? REALLY? There were so many better females dancers than her. I guess they just had to fill their trashy bitch quotient since they hadn't put any in the top twenty yet. ekfkdsjkfjjFKJJFJ PUT SOME DAMN CLOTHES ON. I can't believe she's a teacher. She's also a ghettofied white trash version of Shakira. Honey, please, Shakira would wipe the floor with you.

RE: Evan Kasprzak & Brandon Bryant - WHY DID THEY NOT MAKE THE TOP 20? They both got cut right at the Top 20 round, meaning they kicked ass in all the choreography rounds and ALMOST MADE IT. And they kept so much "WHAT THE FUCK? REALLY? THEM?" when they could have kept EVAN AND BRANDON. And I'm not the only one who is pissed about this. People are ranting and raving everywhere about the two of them not making it.

Entertainment Weekly says so too, LOL: "Here's what was most exasperating: In the cases of Bryant and Kasprzak especially, I really would have appreciated, you know, any footage of their Vegas auditions so I could have at least a smidge of context for the judges' decision not to include them in the top 20. Kasprzak's 10 seconds of expertly aping Gene Kelly during Tyce Diorio's Broadway routine doesn't really count. I know the finalists were selected before the season began, but even so, Nigel and Co. had to have known how much these two guys were going to resonate with viewers when they were deciding who to put in the finals. Why else would they have bothered to showcase Brandon and Evan's initial auditions so prominently? And it's not like these guys weren't TV friendly, either; my goodness, were they easy on the eyes, and Brandon's playful offstage charisma during the D.C. auditions was the definition of TV friendly. So what gives, Nigel? Why dangle these guys in front of us if you knew you were just going to rip them away at the last possible second — and then not explain why?"

WORD TO YOUR MOTHER. I'm for real, dudes -- their auditions again: Evan Kasprzak (so refreshing and such a sweetheart) and Brandon Bryant (so personable and amazing -- 1:30 - 2:00 absolutely floor me) -- and again, both of whom obviously killed the choreography in Vegas enough to JUST SCRATCH THE TOP TWENTY. JUDGES, GIVE ME A REASON WHY YOU DENIED THEM.

HAHAHA, EW's take on Matt Dorame -- one of my WHO THE SHIT IS THIS contestants: "This guy is better than Brandon Bryant and Evan Kasprzak? Seriously?"


And then comments on the article:

"No Evan, no Brandon... I am crushed. :("

"Evan got jobbed. Thanks, Fox. He was Top 20 material and he got screwed."

"Brandon and Evan were certainly robbed, along with the rest of us!"

"NO EVAN! WHYYYYYYY? I was really looking forward to seeing what he could do with other styles. Nigel - you are on NOTICE!"

"I was both pouty and furious when Brandon wasn't selected. I watched his audition a good 20 times and just knew he was going to make it to the top 20. As for Evan, it was a mini heartbreak."



DEAR FOX.

YOU DROPPED THE BALL AGAIN, LIKE YOU ALWAYS DO. :P

LOVE, TEAM BREVAN.

P.S. I AM ALSO SICK OF AMERICAN IDOL.

I found a thread from August 2005 in the TFN fanfic resource forum that was like "fill in this silly survey from your OCs POV!" -- this was Gadell's survey:

Name: Gadell Vessau
Home Story: I first appeared in The Feigned, a series started October 2003 about Jacen, Tenel Ka -- and how I messed with their minds a bit. Oops.
Sex: Yes, thank you. Oh, wait, male human -- I'm Hapan. Yeah. Alright.
Favorite Color: I'm quite partial to dark blue. Oh and crimson. Viridian is nice as well...
Favorite Smell: The briny smell of that reflecting pool behind the Fountain Palace.
Chocolate or Roses?: Neither of the two last long... but I'd have to go with chocolate. I like taste better than sight.
Pepsi or Coke?: Whakriff? Erm, I'll just say Hapan wine. We'll go with that -- those other things sound odd.
Zodiac Sign: Born under the Nerf.
Any pets?: No, Jacen's the one with all the pets. Tenel Ka and I just smile and nod at him.
Parents names: Kaden & Erianh Vessau
Siblings names: I have none.
Stuffed Animals?: A little bantha my mom gave me when I was little. It's torn up a bit, but still as... banthaish as ever. : )
One thing no one knows about you: I had a crush on Tenel Ka when we were younger -- but she was the Princess, everyone had a crush on her.
What planet were you born on?: I'm a pureblooded Hapan, isn't that just grand? Or something?
Ever get a sense of forboding?: Honey, I am a sense of forboding.
Does your author have some horrible fate planned for you?: That skinkweed better not. *glares*
Stop to smell the roses or bulldoze them?: Both. Then I get the satisfaction of snorting a nice scent and destroying things afterwards.

---

I could picture like... the sense of forboding line with a *TRIPLE FINGER SNAP*~


AND OH MYGAWD FOX, WOULD YOU POST THE EFFING TOP TWENTY BIOS ON YOUR DAMN WEBSITE ALREADY??? I CANNOT GUSH PROPERLY WITHOUT BIOS AND ADORABLE PICTURES.

(Also LOL is the totally awesome and bored sounding subject line on the ONTD comm.: Kevin Zegers Shows His Butt Again -- it's so, "Yep, and that's that."

HHAHAHAHAHAH OMG AND BEST COMMENTS ON THE ENTRY:

"no matter how many times he's naked on film, i will always think air bud when i see him"

"I watched Air Bud on the Disney Channel tonight. Who knew that little kid would turn out so hot?"

"BE MORE NAKED KEVIN ZEGERS.")

EWWWWW. SAKJDASJK UGH. ew.com did an article on the 15 scariest tv shows and the screenshot they showed for the X-files is from the episode "Home" -- which is like THE CREEPIEST AND GROSSEST EPISODE EVER. D:

Also, if I had a spare $200 laying around the house I would totally buy this. That is 4,524 minutes of straight-up awesome right there.

Amen to EW for putting Carnivale on their list as well. That show never got the right love. It was also creepy as hell (and totally reminded me of the circus level in that old PC game, Sanitarium XD). DOUBLE AMEN TO EW FOR TWIN PEAKS. :D

Moving on to a different side of television, the absolute most adorable guy was on So You Think You Can Dance last night. His name was Evan Kasprzak and I fell totally in love with him because he was so cute and charming and he did a whole 40's/50's Gene Kelly thing and he was so excited to be there and it was the icing on the cake when he got a ticket straight to Vegas and ran out of the theater and DID THE RUNNING MAN. XD Plus, oh my gawddd his arms. HOT.

I am a big fan of Cat Deeley too. She's a great host for the show and seems to give some kind of shit about these people while they're auditioning. She's a sweetheart and I would love to hug her. <3

(AND OH MAN TRAVIS IN DRAG WAS CLASSIC. Good golly, miss molly that boy CAN MOVE. IN HEELS.)

Alright, I want Brandon Bryant, Josh Allen, Twitch and Evan Kasprzak in the top 20. AT LEAST TWO OUT OF FOUR, PLZ. ;-;

This is seriously like one of my top five favorite tv shows. Or wait, I take that back until I see the top twenty. XD


P.S. Some teenagers are so effing stupid. I am in love with this one girl they quoted though: Brianna Moran, 15, who attends the same school as the girl in the La Crosse case, said she is not surprised by such behavior. "They probably think they're hot or something. If you look at people's MySpace, all the pictures are slutty," she said.

LOL LOVE YOU, SMART GIRL. XD

Okay, that two hours was amazing and I am so already Team Twitch. If he doesn't make it to the top 20 this time I WILL CRY. I couldn't cry last time cause it was either him or Hok. And I love me some Hok. <3

I can't wait till they get to the Washington D.C. auditions, LOL~~~

And I kind of missed Mary Murphy's insane cackles, it was nice to hear them.

...I say that now. In like three weeks I'll be like, "OMG SHE'S SCREAMING ABOUT THE EFFING HOT TAMALE TRAIN AGAIN!!!1"


YAY FOR TOMORROW BEING FRIDAY! AND A THREE DAY WEEKEND where I sit around off my foot!

We got spiffy new business cards at work today. :D

Alright, y'all know I watch like 9048594853904.7 reality shows, but one of the best ones ever (and by best ones ever I mean it's in my top three with Project Runway and The Mole/America's Best Dance Crew/stupid ass Top Model -- four if you count American Gladiators as reality... okay so that's like top five, plus THIS SHOW SO TOP SIX) --

SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE IS ON TONIGHT. I watch Idol, yeah. But Idol is always a yay because I know SYTYCD starts right when it stops, so Idol is always a lead-in to EFFING AWESOMENESS.

This show started out to me in the first season as like, "oh hay this looks like it could be amusing let's watch" -- but as the seasons went on it just keeps getting more fun. To see some of the shit these people can do with their bodies is AMAZING. Especially the break dancers (here's looking at Hok/Ryan/Cedric/etc.) -- and then dancers like Danny from last season. Holy crap. He was cocky, sure, but he could totally back it up with his skills.

AND THE GROUP DANCES~ <3333 (So much better and way more entertaining than Idol's group sings. D:)

I will never in my entire life get over this dance (DANNY IN A MAN-SKIRT <3). I kept that episode on the TIVO for months just for that dance. (Even if crapass Lauren was in it. :O~~~~~~ <-- barf)

ALSO, THE MUSIC. I have discovered so many bands by listening to the music they use for dances on here. This is where I first heard The Presets, LOL~


AND WADE ROBSON. WADE WADE WADE. PLEASE TO BE CHOREOGRAPHING SOME MORE WEIRD YET AWESOME SHIT THIS SEASON, THANK YOU (JHFDSJF THE LAST ONE ROISIN MURPHY RAMALAMA FJADKFJDSKLJFJF).


MY FOOT. It doesn't hurt as bad now, but I'm still supposed to be staying off of it and taking my massive amounts of ibuprofen. SO I AM HOPING IT IS ACTUALLY GOING AWAY. D:

...the pain, I mean. Not my foot.


YES. On June 3rd, Gavin Rossdale's solo album Wanderlust, Disturbed's fourth album Indestructible and the Best of Radiohead CD/DVD! <333333

OH SNAP BAG OF BONES HAS AN IMDB PAGE NOW. The day The Long Walk gets an IMDB page I will piddle my pants of glee like a puppy. NO RLY.

(AND FKL:KL:SADLASL, PEOPLE ON IMDB, THE DARK FIGURE AT THE END OF THE LONG WALK IS NOT RANDALL EFFING FLAGG. >:|)

OKAY. I know I've gushed about So You Think You Can Dance routines on here a billion times before -- but this one, DUDE THIS ONE.

DANNY AND NEIL. OMG. The moves and the outfits and the makeup and Danny doing the irritating clap in Neil's face. And the canes. And just, heeeeeeeee.

http://www.rickey.org/?p=4916 -- WATCH THE "WITH NEIL" CLIP. WAAAAAAATCH THEM THROW EACH OTHER AROUND. Danny even palms Neil's face at one point. Like, "Nyaaaaaaah bitch~"

(And when they're tapping and fingering the canes at the beginning and being all emo KLJDLF: LDSHfl ajsdhfjhfk hfd;ldshf slk GUH.)


OKAY I'M FINISHED NOW. The Lacey/Sabra fox routine was hot too. GO WADE GO!

SO I MADE AN ETSY SHOP. And stuff. Star Wars pins (Anakin and Tenel Ka up now, with more coming soon XD), video game pins, random crap. Arrested Devlopment, stick figures, Final Fantasy, your mom, Silent Hill. And stuff. And... stuff. I knew I kept all those old magazines for a reason. And I love me some button/pin press. XD

Classes starts on the 22nd and I'll be in my two snazzy computer classes and that's all. Those should be fun hello web design lol. I still want to take a creative writing class but I know I'll have to read my shit in front of people and I hate doing that. Haaaaaate. D:

( And under this cut, I use colorful language to profess my hatred for a horrible, skanky reality TV personality. )

I also, out of the cut, must say how awesome Zach is on that show -- just because he mentioned Dragon*Con. XD

As for other teevee news, the "Sweet Dreams" routine (seriously this dance is the shit) last night with Sabra and Neil was amazing, especially when he did that gymnastic crazy plange thing over her on the table and the routine to "In The Morning" by the Junior Boys was awesome (even though the song was mixed weird), if only for the song and the fact that Pasha was dressed like a nerd. Also, I like Dave Scott.

Haha, you guys, I love Stephen King: "King was conscious enough to give the deputy phone numbers to contact his family but was in considerable pain. King mentioned in an interview that he told a paramedic he knew he was going into shock — and he knew very well what shock was because he wrote about horrible injuries all the time."

ALSO. TEASER POSTER FOR THE MIST. <3 And okay, as much as I liked the Silent Hill movie, I have a feeling this will be more like a Silent Hill movie. I mean, these things come out of the mist. Heeee~ AND LAURIE HOLDEN IS IN THIS TOO. XD

P.S. WHAT THE SHIT ARE THEY DOING REMAKING IT? NO ONE WILL BE BETTER AT PENNYWISE THAN TIM CURRY. D:

I know I disowned the show last week, but of course, I still watched it. And omg, the opening dance was beautiful.

Scroll down to the first video -- Danny totally pulls off a manskirt (and a flashing light on his nipple lol <3), Jaimie's hair is wild and I think I love Sabra even more than humanly possible. That opening number rivals "Ramalama (Bang Bang)" and is So. Damn. Pretty.

LOOOOOOVE. MUST WATCH. It is so hypnotizing. O_O Plus, that song has always been awesome.

(Hok would've made it even better, but you know me, Hok would make ANYTHING better. <3)


P.S. Danny looks like Michael Jackson. Michael Jackson from the 80's. XD

P.S.S. Dominic is love. "YES, MA'AM."

SOMEBODY PUTSESES THEM ON YOUTUBE!

I want you watch Cedric's feet during his solo. I swear this boy has NO JOINTS AT ALL. LIKE HIS ANKLES ARE JELLO. PLUS HE IS SO CUTE. <3 And I am still amazed that he's had no formal training at all, ever. D:

Also, WADE ROBSON IS MY HERO AGAIN. IT IS SO CREEPY, THIS DANCE. Lots of Hok (he is in the front when the boys are dancing alone, yay)! And eyeliner! And black nails! And I can't tell any of the girls apart -- they're like 60's-mod-Twiggy-zombies and I effing LOVE IT. THEY LOOK SO SEXCELLENT. <3

And Danny is so cocky but he reminds me of the lead singer from She Wants Revenge and is so hot and can dance, and D-trix looks like fucking John Leguizamo, no lie, I LOVE. And during that dance, at 1:16, when the camera travels from Hok being creepy in the front, to John Leguizamo D-trix, to Danny (who is looking mighty bendy and flowy and totally eye-humps the camera) -- I SQUEED LIKE A SCHOOLGIRL. D:

TELL ME LIKE ONE OF YOU IS WATCHING SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE? FOX FUCKING DOES SOMETHING RIGHT FOR ONCE.

CEDRIC AND HOK (HE LOOKED SO AWESOME WITH THE EYELINER AND BLACK NAIL POLISH IN THE GROUP NUMBER D:) AND D-TRIX OHMAHGAWD.

OKAY NOW THAT I HAVE THAT OUT OF MY SYSTEM.

I've been at a thing for work the past two days, getting up early and driving almost into DC, then sitting and listening to people present facts on things that relate to my work. It was nice to be away from work, but not nice to be up so early. D:

But tomorrow is Friday. And I will work on sites and costumes (like maybe I will start on my Supar Sekritt Star Wars costume :o!) and so on. And I will also be dancing around randomly because I find myself doing that lately when I have music on. I'll just get up and dance. O_O

I will have a party and invite myself and then dance in the basement this weekend. It will be awesome.

I will also be posting the epilogue to Simply Being Loved on TFN this weekend, which means I'll be starting Urbania's Void next week. And I'll most likely be putting it on TFN and the site at the same time. And maybe the writing journal, but I am lazy and updating three places at once = omg WTF. XD

TIME TO DANCE. J'mon.

HOK HOK HOK!!!

I AM GIDDY. XD

(ALSO, NEIL IS PRETTY. AND I AM IN LOVE WITH THE CRAZY MAN THAT IS RICKY.)

So LotF-era Jacen & TK will stick as Jared & Bryce, while NJO/the Feigned and so on will be River & Laura -- I thank you all for all your help with my fangasming. <33333 XD

In light of that, I posted a post-Sacrifice short story (aka one-shot) on caineslayer concerning the moment Jacen realizes he has nobody left at all. He is alone. And Darthy. And emo. There is also mush and perverted-ness -- with more of the latter than the former. LIKE NORMAL! Yay!


AND HAY - HOK LASTED ALL THROUGH VEGAS. We'll see tomorrow if he makes top 20 after one more solo! (I am totally crossing my fingers, seriously. ;-;)